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Monday, July 13, 2009
limbo.
What a difference 2 months make. As though i've been through hell and back. Okay that is putting it on the extreme side. The whole range of emotions that i've gone through are both pleasing and teeth clenching frustration. I wouldn't know if this is the better times i've wished in the previous entry, but no regrets; each and every decision and experience. Everything is so abrupt and sudden. I just didn't have time to cherish each and every moment the way i'd wished.No surprise on the rejection letters. Even on the appeal letter. Thus my education dilemma is thrown into further disarray. Once again, i'm asked no less than a dozen times what my future plans are and my answer is still the same: i don't know. As much as most who suggest SIM, i'm not so keen, i'm not sure why really. Maybe the prospect of a $56k course is really daunting, where failure is really not an option. I don't know which bank i'm going to rob to get the booty, but i feel its not necessary to pay a ransom just to get into an university per se. Now you know where i stand.
The reason why there were no entries for the past 10 odd weeks were, well partly due to laziness as usual but also due to the fact that i was employed. The word is was. I managed to land a job as a temp screening officer at TTSH at the start of May, and is my longest period of employment, NS and moonlighting non withstanding. A job which i begrudgingly accepted because i was well unemployed and getting rather exasperated at that point of time and on the urging of my mum.
I had no qualms working at the frontline of the war against h1n1. Sort of a second NS to me, with better pay. A cool experience working in a hospital with all the hustle and bustle are you. Feels really small among the hive of non-stop activity. The first few days were so-so, i was quite a loner and made to do sedentary roles. I was assigned to the level 1 triage and went to the same station throughout my working life there, with the exception of 2 shifts.
It was at times ad hoc duties which include registration, ushering, security, temperature taking, information counter, delivery and hospital guide. I started out as at visitor registration a job which i first enjoyed at its seated and relatively straight forward. That is until the relatives become straight forward. I got into many arguments regarding the visitors' restriction policy. Of course there were many a time i closed not one, two but 3 eyes but what really irks me were the blatant, ignorant and apathetic attitudes of such visitors. Your're not in a position to make demands and instruct me to your orders. I have a set or protocol and guidelines to follow not just your wimps and fancy.
I got sick of that and then i began doing more ushering and temp scanning. I don't mind standing for long periods of time as long as i'm as far away from the dastardly registration counters as possible. It was then i got to know more of my co-workers and colleagues mainly through the misconception that i'm Chinese. A closely knitted motley crew who were fiercely loyal to our station. I think i took it for granted.
The termination came not too much surprise but i was least expecting it. Just a few days ago a few of the others were terminated in similarly dodgy and questionable circumstances but i didn't give it too much thought. When i was asked to do a questionnaire, i didn't give it much thought too and did it honestly to the best of my knowledge. And within the hour, i received a call of my termination. I was in a daze and i didn't take it too well. I was not satisfied with the bullshit reasons they offered and it appears scripted and insincere.
I don't know if i made the right choice or not. I was given a choice with a decision to make. If i lied, most probably i'll get to keep the job(for the meantime anyway based on the contract) and work with the fear that i lied. And if anything happens to me, and they found out i didn't supply the information to the best of my knowledge, i would be in really hot water. I already have enough medical issues to deal with.
On the other hand i didn't lie, my conscience got the better of me. I wouldn't have a problem lying, but its best to tell the truth. And i got terminated. I suppose the reason is pretty valid. I was really upset with the manner the agency and the hr handled the whole issue. I felt they could have dealt it in a much more better way and not leave us in the lurch. No proper explanation, plenty of loopholes and a blatant disregard for the staffs' welfare. No remuneration, no compensation. After all they did, risking their lives from start to end in aid to curb the spread of an infectious disease that is wrecking havoc in out community. We may be temporary staff on contract, but is this how you show your gratitude? By packing us off in a hurry upon knowing our medical histories?
I'm still reeling from the sudden termination, but i'll come to terms to it soon. Actually i don't give a crap about the job. I'm upset that i won't be able to see and work with my colleagues again. We don't seem like working adults, more like a school class on holiday. It was great while it lasted. Not i've got to move on, repeat the torturous process of looking for a new job and settle the hullabaloo of my further studies.
Dang. No more looking forward to going to work. No more looking forward to breaks. No more looking forward to walking at the linkbridge.
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