gobbledigook.

[ a morbid fascination that borders on obsession. ]

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

The flu bug hit again. Most probably got it from Faizal. My nose had been running non-stop since i got home. Its making me more miserable to cap a quite miserable day. I let my emotions take control of me and it got the better of my conscience and common sense. I guess i was too overwhelmed by something something that only existed in my state of mind. I figured out that i acted kind of weird in such instances, as if possessed by a foreign body. Do i have a split personality? I'm not inclined to think so. Its as if i can see myself being a totally different person, even feeling it but not being able to do anything about it. Something like an out-of-the-body experience.

Now it seems very childish and immature. My moment of weakness. I really get pissed off when people piss me off. I can't help it. I can't stand others taking advantage of my incredulity and passiveness. I always get caught in the middle, being pulled by both sides and falling rather unwillingly towards the stronger side. Maybe i shouldn't be such a nice guy and let people step all over me. Yet again, i don't think i'm capable of displaying such brashness to the extent of being someone that i am not.

Counting down the days, that might just be the last.

I've got soul
But I'm not a soldier

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