gobbledigook.
[ a morbid fascination that borders on obsession. ]
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
Such ignorance. Such self centred-ness. I never thought it existed in a such a way, in such magnitude. I'm so disappointed. I never thought it could happen until this way. Its not fair, just not fair. You rounded up a wonderfully fucked-up day for me. Thanks for it. I think at this very moment, or the previous times, you don't realise what you've done. You may say its something small, yes i agree its a small matter but it means a lot. Its just a small gesture, always go by unnoticed or placed with little importance. I'm shocked you're like that, actually i shouldn't cause it happened so many times before but it never cease to amaze me.You always care about yourself. You. YOu. YOU. Everything revolves around you. Nothing else matters. It is always you. The decisions made, places went, whether to eat or not. Everything.
I don't matter, do I? It seems very so. Sometimes its like i don't even exist even though i'm just around. The thought of my existence just slipped out of your mind. You take things for granted, do whatever you like, never once stop and put yourself in others' shoes. Think about how others' feel. You think what you do is fine and there is nothing wrong with it, but do you ever think that it might affect someone in one way or the other? Snap out of your narrow mind, see the big picture. Its a wide world out there, not your tiny remote self only.
Have you ever given a thought of it? Of course never. Everything that is important is you. Its so important that you forget other people, others' feelings, about convenience and just about everything. I jusr loathe this stuck-up selfish uncaring and unsensitive attitude of yours. It has gotten on the edge of my nerves and i am very sick and tired of it.
I kept quiet all this while, just brushing aside everything that happen,big or small, recent or distant. We've been together for quite sometime. Don't show this kind apathy towards others and just care about yourself. I'm really disgusted that you act in such a way. You think whatever you do is correct, bla bla. You are really mistaken. Wake up from your imaginary la-la land. Its is reality. You may have the upper hand now, but you won't survive with this kind of atttitude.
Of course you won't realise who you are because you don't even know your're doing this.
I've got soul
But I'm not a soldier
But I'm not a soldier
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