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Sunday, June 20, 2010
siesta fiesta.

This break is turning out pretty well i'd say. The best part is naturally overloading on sleep at the most inappropriate hours. Pigging it out on the bed is the most decadent treat after a long night of soccer. That being said, the world cup isn't helping a wee bit. In fact, my bio clock and sleeping pattern has done a topsy-turvy one-eighty; day has become night and vice versa. But this beats school hands and body lying down. I was actually getting in the school mode, with the early morning lessons (read: 12pm) and hectic work schedule. Well there is another week of break left, and i shall milk it for what its worth.

The relative calm of my uneventful life was shattered recently, well maybe not exactly shattered, but rocked somewhat. Suddenly so many things are happening at once and i feel left behind. I am due to move house again, for the second time in my 22 short years alive. Downsizing to a smaller unit somewhere in Marsiling. i'm not exactly rubbing my hands in gleeful anticipation but my family would greatly benefit from the move. It is a huge possibility that i would be room-less, not that i'd mind, but i'll miss my current one. Personal space is not an existing entity in my household. Maybe its time to move out? Kidding only, mum. But it'd be nice to get me a vespa eh. Sacrificing my privacy for a bike seems like a reasonable trade-off.

Quite recent my paternal grandfather was admitted to hospital and turned out he has stage four cancer, which is terminal. He's staying over with us since his discharge and mum is his caregiver. Its a bit of a lifestyle change as i'm not used to see him so often. Initially i thought why but i dismissed that thought immediately and kicked myself for being so selfish. Its quite depressing to see him so frail and fragile, bedridden and unable to talk. It is of upmost importance to give him the best care and treatment while he is staying with us.

This kind of coincided with my ONOW service learning project with the Singapore Cheshire Home. Glad to be done with it. Can't divulged much details about that but it did prepare me mentally and psychologically towards my grandfather's condition.

And yes Zaknius the world cup is here. The previous post was a day before the first game and honestly its been quite a bummer of a world cup. Its weird and crazy at the same time. The french and english are like a snowballing train wreck. No country has exceptionally stood out after the first round of group games, maybe argentina and brasil the better of the lot. The top teams are toothless in attack and clueless defensively. The minnow and smaller nations are adapting a mourinho-esque style of play which is tactically sound but has zero entertainment value. Sure you can frustrate your opponents and maybe nick a lucky goal on the counter. But for fuck's sake this is a tournament. You can draw all your games with none scored or conceded and you'll get booted out for sure. Its the anti-thesis of soccer, you can't score if don't attack.

That being said, Italy was hugely disappointing in their opening game against Paraguay. Playing wide with players out of position is not something i'd expect of Lippi. Gilardino was nonsense as usual, typical of his performance at Milan. Iaquinta and Marchisio and Montolivo too. The brighter sparks were Pepe and De Rossi, perhaps shouldering much of the attacking and defensive duties respectively. Zambrotta and Cannavaro are past their prime and Chelini and Criscito and obviously not up to mark.

The injury to Buffon is a huge blow and i have no idea who this Marchetti is. The report on Lippi screaming at his attackers when they failed to score during at a training session is funny. Well Lippi, you brought it upon yourself. When half your team are from Juventus who finished 7 in Serie A, then something is seriously wrong. And thats for leaving out Del Piero, Totti, Perotta and Cassano. I hope a much better performance tonight against New Zealand, nothing less than a comprehensive victory.

The guys and girls are going to Kl next weekend, damn, was looking forward to that. Is ICP test better be worth my sacrifice. Need some retail therapy, haven't been shopping for a while but i'm afflicted with the great june financial crisis as well. Maybe i need to start working again.

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Thursday, June 10, 2010
calm before the storm.

I'm done with MSTs, no actually just MST. i only had 1 test for marketing, which was so-so. The other modules were mainly project based and it has been a pretty relaxed term i would say. Now a 2 week break awaits and frankly i am, bored. i kind of enjoy going to school everyday and never once have i dread making the 1 hour trip to Dover. but then again a break is nice, considering the numerous projects and exams looming next term. Hence, the calm before the storm

i really want to blog but i can't seem to find anything blog worthy to note. Till then.

Saturday, June 05, 2010
one for the naughties.

Well this is awkward. Looking back at the very previous post, this seems like sacrilege. An unforgivable sin of the highest order. In a way its a long overdue post. Even that would be an understatement. 9 months is by no means a short period of time. Heck you can conceive a baby at that. In the past there've been prolonged absences and barren runs one too many. This is not a re-birth or re-awakening. This is simply: i'm back.

For those of you who've been living in a cave all this while, i've hit the school benches once again. Yes, i'm back at school. i am now a first year student at Singapore Polytechnic doing a diploma in media and communication. School has been great, i'm enjoying every second of it and i have a fantabulously awesome class. What more can i ask?

Time fries by, i mean flies by when you are having fun. True enough 2 months of school passed at the blink of an eye. I was waist deep in projects, assignments and deadlines and with the 2 weeks break around the corner, a respite in in sight. A well deserved break is due to refresh and re-energise.

i would like to dedicate this post to those who have visited this blog all this while, only to be disappointed with no new entries. i've been busy, well not really. i was working for a govt agency 8 months since post TTSH and right up to school. Nothing really interesting and blog-worthy. It was an extended vacation of sorts and it was good times.

And to my ex-colleague, RIP Huda. You will always be in my thoughts and prayers.

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Thursday, September 10, 2009
A post a day keeps the rustiness away.

Trying to inculcate a habit of blogging everyday. Easier said than done. But i'm trying.

Wednesday, September 09, 2009
open coffeeshop.

I arrived at work this morning to a rude surprise: my pant's zipper were undone. From Woodlands to Novena i traveled with my coffee shop exposed, an hour worth's of journey and nobody had the sympathy to tell me. Thanks. Made my morning.

Sunday, September 06, 2009
damned if you do, damned if you don't.

This barren run is prolonging longer than i'd expected. This rustiness is corroding myself deeper than i'd realized. It feels good to be writing again after all this while, a lengthy period of uncertainty and inactivity. Every since i failed to get into NUS, well, i've been unsure on what my next step is.

Yes i found a new job, by no means any more secure but a job nonetheless. While i am still formulating my plans, i found new hobbies, which i won't divulge as yet to keep me occupied. I'm quite excited after the preliminary plannings, stuffs which can keep me occupied in the free time, so none goes to waste. I'm still perennially broke, so note to self: start saving more.

Even so, i'm still pretty sluggish in terms of rate of work. Really motivation-less and severely lacking in enthusiasm. Hopefully in this blessed month i shall find my footing and my path.

Wednesday, July 29, 2009
dear blogger,

Excuse me blogger, can you comment on this? What is my blog being flagged for? Care to explain and what should i do now. I don't think there is anything objectionable in my blog. I would appreciate some explanation and guidelines on how to disable the flag thing.

Monday, July 13, 2009
limbo.

What a difference 2 months make. As though i've been through hell and back. Okay that is putting it on the extreme side. The whole range of emotions that i've gone through are both pleasing and teeth clenching frustration. I wouldn't know if this is the better times i've wished in the previous entry, but no regrets; each and every decision and experience. Everything is so abrupt and sudden. I just didn't have time to cherish each and every moment the way i'd wished.

No surprise on the rejection letters. Even on the appeal letter. Thus my education dilemma is thrown into further disarray. Once again, i'm asked no less than a dozen times what my future plans are and my answer is still the same: i don't know. As much as most who suggest SIM, i'm not so keen, i'm not sure why really. Maybe the prospect of a $56k course is really daunting, where failure is really not an option. I don't know which bank i'm going to rob to get the booty, but i feel its not necessary to pay a ransom just to get into an university per se. Now you know where i stand.

The reason why there were no entries for the past 10 odd weeks were, well partly due to laziness as usual but also due to the fact that i was employed. The word is was. I managed to land a job as a temp screening officer at TTSH at the start of May, and is my longest period of employment, NS and moonlighting non withstanding. A job which i begrudgingly accepted because i was well unemployed and getting rather exasperated at that point of time and on the urging of my mum.

I had no qualms working at the frontline of the war against h1n1. Sort of a second NS to me, with better pay. A cool experience working in a hospital with all the hustle and bustle are you. Feels really small among the hive of non-stop activity. The first few days were so-so, i was quite a loner and made to do sedentary roles. I was assigned to the level 1 triage and went to the same station throughout my working life there, with the exception of 2 shifts.

It was at times ad hoc duties which include registration, ushering, security, temperature taking, information counter, delivery and hospital guide. I started out as at visitor registration a job which i first enjoyed at its seated and relatively straight forward. That is until the relatives become straight forward. I got into many arguments regarding the visitors' restriction policy. Of course there were many a time i closed not one, two but 3 eyes but what really irks me were the blatant, ignorant and apathetic attitudes of such visitors. Your're not in a position to make demands and instruct me to your orders. I have a set or protocol and guidelines to follow not just your wimps and fancy.

I got sick of that and then i began doing more ushering and temp scanning. I don't mind standing for long periods of time as long as i'm as far away from the dastardly registration counters as possible. It was then i got to know more of my co-workers and colleagues mainly through the misconception that i'm Chinese. A closely knitted motley crew who were fiercely loyal to our station. I think i took it for granted.

The termination came not too much surprise but i was least expecting it. Just a few days ago a few of the others were terminated in similarly dodgy and questionable circumstances but i didn't give it too much thought. When i was asked to do a questionnaire, i didn't give it much thought too and did it honestly to the best of my knowledge. And within the hour, i received a call of my termination. I was in a daze and i didn't take it too well. I was not satisfied with the bullshit reasons they offered and it appears scripted and insincere.

I don't know if i made the right choice or not. I was given a choice with a decision to make. If i lied, most probably i'll get to keep the job(for the meantime anyway based on the contract) and work with the fear that i lied. And if anything happens to me, and they found out i didn't supply the information to the best of my knowledge, i would be in really hot water. I already have enough medical issues to deal with.

On the other hand i didn't lie, my conscience got the better of me. I wouldn't have a problem lying, but its best to tell the truth. And i got terminated. I suppose the reason is pretty valid. I was really upset with the manner the agency and the hr handled the whole issue. I felt they could have dealt it in a much more better way and not leave us in the lurch. No proper explanation, plenty of loopholes and a blatant disregard for the staffs' welfare. No remuneration, no compensation. After all they did, risking their lives from start to end in aid to curb the spread of an infectious disease that is wrecking havoc in out community. We may be temporary staff on contract, but is this how you show your gratitude? By packing us off in a hurry upon knowing our medical histories?

I'm still reeling from the sudden termination, but i'll come to terms to it soon. Actually i don't give a crap about the job. I'm upset that i won't be able to see and work with my colleagues again. We don't seem like working adults, more like a school class on holiday. It was great while it lasted. Not i've got to move on, repeat the torturous process of looking for a new job and settle the hullabaloo of my further studies.

Dang. No more looking forward to going to work. No more looking forward to breaks. No more looking forward to walking at the linkbridge.

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Wednesday, April 29, 2009
walking on sunshine.

Okay i've doodled and dawdled over this entry for 3 weeks now. Too long too long. Apparent i wanted to reminiscent over the last 2 years but its just not meant to be. I guess its not just worth it, hence my mind's reluctance to have a verbal diarrhoea. This unemployment is killing me, i could be doing worthwhile but instead i'm just bumming around everyday, listless and penniless. Till' better times folks.

Thursday, April 02, 2009

My boredom continues. I don't really like to post videos, but i stumbled upon these two which i think are worth sharing. I'm not those who are on youtube 24/7, so yah enough of my excuses.



 Me, Myself And I
I've got soul
But I'm not a soldier
Airing The Dirty Laundry


Skeletons In The Closet

The Reading Few

Adeel
Ahmad
Aisyah
Amin
Cikgu K
Dinie
Eisha
Emel
Evon
Fadilah
Innova Soccer
Juice
Khairiana
Khairul
Maisarah
Michelle
PeiYi
Philmon
Ramizah
Shahira
Sufie
Syafiq
Tracy
Venetia
Yamin
Zaliza
Zawiyah

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